AH-Suena’s Blog The Long Winding Road
I realized this morning that I will continue to have my up days and my down days. This morning is a bit of both.
Today, the NY Daily News published the story of what has happened to me and of how Linda and I were connected on line through the comments section, regarding their story of the young male model who committed suicide, after posting on his FaceBook page. When I read the article about Linda and I this morning, I felt frightened and embarrassed at first, and then I felt hopeful — that it would help someone out there who was feeling just like me, to hold on and to not end their life, and also, maybe inspire people to reach out and help others in these terrible times.
There were many very, very kind comments to the story, and then there were some that were so horrible, that it truly depressed me. I wondered about the dark place those people must be in right now, to write things so hateful and hurtful. A week ago, reading comments like that would have pushed me over the edge. Today, they just make me feel very sad.
But what I’ve decided to do is to focus on the positive words of encouragement, the prayers and the poems that have been sent to me – the truly beautiful and blessed people who have shared their stories with me. They have all kept me going. You have no idea just how much they all mean to me. I have been truly uplifted by the kindness of people whom I don’t even know. People — total strangers, who have said to me, “you are loved” and “we care about you” and “you are not alone.” Those words still resonate and bring me to tears as I write this. And I feel so profoundly blessed by them.
And that is what will comfort me and help keep me going as I take my “baby steps” on this long and winding road.
Suena,
There is a mystery that surrounds the human experience in which there will always be the dark admist the light, good with the bad, the kind words with the ugly, and of course the ups and the downs. I suppose they are our teachers to recongnize and appreciate those who do surround you with love and light. You don’t know me, nor I you but we are down here in little ole South Carolina trying to raise some money to get you back on your feet. Perhaps this extension of kindness will inspire you to “pay it forward” and you can experience what a wonderful gift it is to be able to help someone just because it’s the right thing to do.
Dakota Walker said this on March 9, 2009 at 9:08 pm